A Line Drawn In The Sand
This year I’m drawing a line in the sand.
This post was written early in 2017.
With the onset of spring, comes the anticipation of seeding and a busier season. The list of things to do before that first day of seeding grows by the day if not by the hour at times. And the likelihood of getting wrapped up in the stress, the pressure and the anxiety of it all increases.
Last year I let myself get wrapped up in the worry and the stress of it all. Then when our crops got damaged by cutworms and then hail, the stress level in our home was at an all time high.
This year I will NOT go there again.
I’m not willing to let the stress, anticipation and worry take over, cloud my thinking and reactions.
We are here in this time and location farming for a reason. In many ways It is through the generosity of my husband’s uncle’s that we are here farming. But even before that, God set up events that created this opportunity to farm and opened up doors that we could not have opened on our own.
We are called to “be anxious for nothing” and sometimes that seems like an insurmountable feet. But the thing is is that we’re called to a lot of things that seem insurmountable.
Everybody’s heard of the 10 Commandments and although I’m pretty sure that I can uphold not murdering anyone, I fail at so many other commandments frequently. But, the 10 Commandments and the law of Moses were put there for a reason. God knew we couldn’t live up to it all and he put it there To drive us back to himself, to show our continued need for him.
God wants us to desire Him above all else. He wants us to desire Him and to seek Him.
I recently listened to the sermon by John piper (you can listen to it here ) where he talked about what the essence of sin was. Ultimately the essence of sand was choosing something more than God or believing that God was withholding something from us. he gave the example of Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden. Adam and Eve didn’t sin by taking a bite of the fruit, chewing the fruit or even swallowing the fruit. No they sinned when they chose to believe that God was withholding something from them and desiring that something “knowing good and evil” more than what they already had with God.
I surely will at times allow stress to overcome my thinking and my actions in the next few months, but God is not focused on our failures, He’s focused on our hearts and waiting for us to simply choose to seek Him above all else.
Then He is able to use those opportunities in our lives that we see as “impossible” or challenging or devastating to drive us to himself and to show himself strong above those impossible things in our lives.
So today I am choosing to seek God’s face above all and to allow Him to choose what will be best, good or bad, for my future. I will trust that whatever our future holds that it is what is best for me and my family and what will allow God to do the greatest work in my life.